Wednesday, March 27, 2013
No way to say sorry
I'm doing this journal for Tuesday the 26th. I choose this to be the day that I would go for a full day without talking at all because I wasn't working and only had one class. In class I fell asleep with ease which allowed me to not have to deal with not being able to talk. After class though I was on my way home and decided I wanted a drink so I tried stopping at a drive through. After pulling up to the drive through order speaker I realized I wasn't allowed to talk. This made me feel pretty stupid and so I had to drive away without saying anything. Because I couldn't get a drink I decided to go to kroger across the street. After walking in I couldn't find the gatorade isle so I attempted to ask a worker where the isle was. I quickly realized when he started signing to me that he was deaf. He pointed to his ear and shook his head to show that he couldn't hear me. I wasn't sure what to say or even try to communicate because I couldn't sign back, but I also could not say what I wanted too. Since I couldn't sign I made a drinking hand gesture and so he started signing back to me again. It was really frustrating and I really wanted to apologize and walk away. But I wanted to apologize not for wasting his time, but that this is an issue that he deals with on a daily basis. I couldn't though. I couldn't express my thoughts and got frustrated and left. Driving back home I forgot the drink and went straight home. I couldn't stop thinking about how I couldn't even communicate the simple thought of sorry.