Lonesome

Friday March 22nd was my first day doing my experiment.  I am updating my blog today solely because I realized I never wrote down the initial password and email that I used to create the first account, so I was forced to create a new one.  Day one of my experiment was...a surprise. In many ways I thought that this task would be an easy one.  Especially considering on a daily basis I know people who never talk in their classes, how hard could it be for me?  In classes I found it less the difficult to contain my thoughts, but when on campus (not in class), I had a more than rough time.  Normally between classes I socialize with friends, but it was too hard to keep up with them without my words being spoken.  In place of spoken words I tried to use a notebook and sharpie to express my thoughts, but by the time I had finished writing my sentence the topic had moved on.  It made me feel a bit sad that I couldn't participate, but even more than sad it had made me feel alone.  Even though I stood with friends, my voice was not heard, but the conversation would still go on.  I decided to dismiss the thoughts from my head and move on.  I went to my Spanish class after my short break and simply avoided the questions as I would any other day.  After class I usually go to the "Teke Corner", where my fraternal brothers generally meet up to socialize, but I knew communicating would again be a problem or at the very least a hassle for those who I tried to talk too, so I went home for the day. Whence at home I could speak again, but it did make me wonder about mute people.  Do they feel the loneliness I felt today, on a daily basis? How could anyone deal with that?